Well...it sounds like everyone was down to get good and messed up here given the amount of booze, and different types of booze presented in your case. My ruling is you're probably gonna be in the clear. I remember getting good and fucked up at a few holiday parties at my old job. I was witness to one co-worker puking in my boss's flower garden off the front porch lol. Walking out the front door to peace out, "Dave" was just hurling into that flower bed full boar and just hap-hazardly tried to waive bye to me mid puke stream lol. Anyway he was very much not fired.

I hope you’re able to work everything out soon.

It is an illness like any other but I 100% feel like it would hurt my career to share too much.

Don’t do it if you can possibly avoid it. I had a mental health crisis and crashed hard. I had been very transparent about my struggle leading into, so many people were not surprised. I brought a work project down (it got delayed) with me, and although my colleagues were amazing, the organizational leaders were not. My recovery has involved a reduced work schedule, and they demoted me as far as they possibly could, and basically disappeared me so I am totally isolated from my work community of a decade - yes, a decade.

I don't really see the problem. No real reason to actively keep depression a secret, its common and besides you were drunk so you could have said worse.

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Well a hat yes, but I work at Wegmans. They have a dress code and I dunno if I could handle wearing a beanie next to ovens

Can you wear a hat? Preferably one that covers your ears so they can’t see the earbud.

I hope you'd get some professional help. Antidepressants aren't that uncommon now. You'd be surprised how many people are taking it. Hope you'd you alright.

Edit: I don't think you FUp, you just expressed your deepest thoughts, which I think helps you.

How you doing now?

What do you have to be ashamed of? That sounds like just the truth being said

Man, I just don't see the appeal of getting drunk

I'm glad it turned around for you, it absolutely did for me too. I think it's an inherent part of being human, to have these spans in life where everything gets dark time and again. Goes to show, sometimes all you can do is just keep going, eventually the fever will break. "The only way out is through"

Congratulations on starting your journey to better health! You're lucky that they caught you in the pre-diabetic phase because once you have it, it wreaks so much havoc on your body.

I was diagnosed with full-blown diabetes back in 2012 and didn't start Keto until the end of 2021. I was also on Metformin (luckily wasn't so bad that I needed insulin, but I was close to that level). I have, through diet alone (I'm too lazy to exercise and need to work on that LOL) successfully treated my diabetes and no longer need medicine.

Low carb is absolutely the best solution for keeping your blood sugars healthy. Just find the macros that work best for you.

If you ever have any questions about diabetes or Keto, feel free to message me. I wish you the best!

Talk to your boss - that is a reasonable accommodation provided you can still perform your job well. Noise machines are considered a reasonable accommodation, why not music/audiobooks? https://askjan.org/disabilities/Schizophrenia.cfm

I hear you!

I was the work goofball and when shit hit the fan and folks were stressed out they usually looked to me lighten the mood (usually…)

Well things got really stressful at work and I was dealing with some personal stuff and they were having some team meeting trauma bond shit. Like everybody take turns talking about a challenge, or someone you miss (you get the gist). The get to me and everyone’s waiting for me to say something silly (I said I was grateful for all day McDonald’s breakfast at the last company thanksgiving). And I actually tried but all that came out was something like “my greatest challenge is finding the will to care, or I miss who I was before the weight of the world crushed my spirit” (you get the gist).

Everyone just looked uncomfortably at the floor until the moved on to the next person.

It got better for me, hope it got better for you

I'm retired! Lol

Currently attempting to actually. I had one made for university but never really thought about it for work because for 3 years they just let me play music and then suddenly nope. Not okay. "I could hurt myself with a single earbud in. The speaker in the department (which you can't hear outside of the department) clashes with the stores music it'll confuse our customers. "

I’m sorry for your lost. It hits hard when we lose someone close to us. There presence can give us a sense of perspective in this life, so once it’s gone, it can Drastically impact us. Please stay strong. I believe on you!

Can you get a document from a medical professional stating that you need the auditory aides? This 100% needs an accommodation.

It’s about to be an awkward Monday at work tomorrow

Give yourself grace. Lots of people would’ve ended up in a fist-fight after that much alcohol. All you did was let others see your vulnerability. You’re human. This too shall pass.

Just sharing a personal experience and hopefully, some helpful information. That doesn't mean people have to take it or even read it, and that is what is awesome about reddit.

Hey man, don't beat yourself up too much. In the future, only drink with those that you can confide in. I'm a very emotional drunk and I get it. Second, get some help buddy. Or at least promise me you'll look into it. I just started meds and regular therapy sessions. I do feel better. Do your best to change what you can. I'm rooting for you man. PM if you want to.

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