Ouch. You're right about that much, but I've never attempted to talk to her or anything before, so it's not about interest either. Ik she doesn't like me and I don't like her. But thanks for the advice anyhow

I said this in an earlier comment, but I honestly forgot about her entirely for most of my years. It's almost like a train of feelings coming back. But you're definitely right about getting her out of my mind, it's like a parasite.

Short and simple, but hits the hardest😔

Well you see I honestly didn't even remember her for most of the time, so that's why I feel hung up now. You're definitely right tho, I've been trying to move on and let things go in life very often.

The simplicity of the solution really makes it sound easy. I'll take this into account during the next encounter. Thanks!

Agreed! OP, you're not describing the heart flutter of a crush, you're describing a panic attack. You're fixating on her so much, your subconscious sees the situation as a threat and is putting your body through a simulated near death experience. Problem is without an actual threat to work through, it's just unpleasant.

Strongly recommend you look into resources for dealing with social anxiety. You're currently only reacting to her presence, but if you keep on, you'll react to the possibility she might be present, then to the memory of previous reactions and eventually you'll just have this reaction every time anyone sits next to you anywhere and it will ruin your life.

Source: diagnosed with generalised anxiety disorder and suffered through escalation for decades before I knew what was going on. On the bright side, it's fixable. You just have to put in some effort.

Nothing happened in the story. Ur upset about a person who ghosted u in 4th grade. Seriously..nothing happened after that.

She just sat next to u. Ignore it. Act like she isn't there

I'm guessing ur gay since u didn't put any genders in the story. (Straight girls always thinks the gays are in love with them. It's exhausting)

Also, please, put spaces between paragraphs.

It's sad to hear. Unfortunately she probably has moved past everything, and you've internalised it. She was never really a good friend to you anyway. You shared some memories but thats all, maybe they exist in your mind but not hers. It's just anxiety now, these feelings. I feel like you could take the risk and ask her why she just disappeared but go in with the thought that she doesn't owe you anything, or just focus on yourself and move forward, appreciate the memories and move forward my guy - the latter is better, if you can do this more in life, the problems resolve themself, it's a real lesson some of us should've learned earlier. I'm not even good at that yet. First step is realising, the next you decide.

You had a crush on her almost a decade ago dude. She’s not even the same person at all anymore. Don’t even try to talk it out with her, you’ll definitely get labeled as a creep immediately. You gotta get a hobby like going to the gym or start talking to some other girl. Anything to remove her from your thoughts.

You need to focus on yourself and your journey. Keep growing and discovering things you enjoy in life, make friends that you will invest in for the long run. Have fun and do you.

That legit sounds like anxiety. You're overthinking your past situation with this girl so much that when she's there in person, it causes you internal panic. Rest assured it's not love, but mentally this clearly has taken a toll on you. Either you talk it out with her about your falling out (easier said than done) or you just avoid contact (not healthy either). Good luck!

brotha I'll advise you to listen to your heart what it says

Nair is very good for back there.

I’d leave it there dawg. It hurts I know but it’s time to let I rest. You can’t let a single girl run your life from like age 9-18. Think about it that’s half your life spent hung up on her. She isn’t interested but someone will be so it’s better you move on now than get labeled as creepy or get hurt later on

Well, yeah, but how can I explain my mother i have 4 fantasy girlfriends? HAHA :'| It's a good thing she hasn't said anything about it tho

The fact that you call her your best friend even though she didn’t talk to you, much less be your best friend, for 8 of the 10 years accounted for in this story means that you are too obsessed with her

You need to realize that she is not worth your worry. Nothing is going to happen, so just accept that sitting near her means absolutely nothing as far as a relationship is concerned. No desire, no fear, just nothing. Just acknowledge her presence (a simple hey) and move on with the rest of your day.

She's given you years of hints. Take them.

Harsh, yes, but apparently needs to be said. If she's interested in talking to you, she'll talk to you. Until then, she's made it clear she doesn't want to

Lel (:

one time, same fucking thing happened to me except i was already 4 months into the relationship. tried to bring it up gently, he got defensive 🫠 said he was a hairy guy and it wasn't possible to clean it all (ethnically indian guy). i'm fuckin greek! i can basically braid my ass hair if i let it grow. never have i EVER left a full-on skid mark on someone's WHITE sheets while standing up from being fucked. relationship was basically over in that moment. breakup happened a month or two later.

EDIT: I think these are the cups

https://preview.redd.it/7byhfy9mt9ga1.jpeg?width=3024&format=pjpg&auto=webp&v=enabled&s=da14c35683ff054ae52db3e5738f398fd622ab6a

6-8/wipe?!?! Do you use 1 ply toilet paper? I use 3 for emergencies and 2 for regular use.

And you just know that a dude that does wipe doesn't wash his asshole either.

Send him cottonelle wipes shipped to his house from Amazon

Everyone you know has "simped" about something they would never share with anyone else. Trust me, the internet is overflowing full of much weirder shit than what you like. Grown men shitting themselves in diapers, paying tens of thousands for an adult sized nursery, with human adult sized cribs, rattles, and stuffies...

Everyone has a "thing" and most of them are not as tame as yours. You can't let it bother you.