Well,Guess I'll live

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Oooh no! I’m so sorry about your porch! But I’m very happy you’re ok! Good thinking with the silver bracelets. I wonder what got that thing so angry? As always, fantastically interesting update!

I actually wouldn’t mind a werewolf that much—maybe I could track him down during the day and hand him the bill for all my property damage!

I will look into the therapy models, never really thought of that so far, but it seems very much genius. The school project as well, "family history" would make a good hang-up for it, honestly.

Lmao "becoming an annoying gen-z", that's genius. I already am annoying, so this would underline my personality, actually. The stage make-up could be super-cool as well, I always wanted to develop my very limited makeup skills, and imagine how overdramatic I could be with the urge to look for trouble AND super cool, long eyelashes. I will DEFINITELY do this, and also look what other funny witches I will find locally.

The thing is, we are not in a hurry about the shifting-research, but we do need to get that Dave thing sorted out fast. I will not go to school with that fucker there. He knows too much.

At that point in time, I was unaware of Matt’s true character…he would lie, yes, but he had never killed anybody. But I see your point, and I suppose it was a momentary lapse in judgement.

Ikr! It was unnecessary and an added risk of having her number in Matt’s phone.

it was also unneeded, just tell when you get back.

I see, so direct therapy doesn't seem like an option but maybe best practices? General models to control your emotional state, ways to handle the situations. It reminded me a bit of a panic attack the way you destined it. Maybe it would be a helpful methodology?

You mentioned that it started because a person put a curse, can you engage in a bunch of history research and find who, what, when, where? You are... a student, no? So you can make it a school project. Absolutely perfect excuse to poke your nose, read more, to the library, pester whoever you want.

About the overall weirdo issues you are describing about your looks and health. Hide in plain sight. Have you ever considered that you can become an annoying millennial (gen z? Whatever it is.). Hide in plain sight. Adopt a dramatic fashion sense. Makeup could be your friend. You can also develop an interest in stage makeup. See, "it's not that I look weird, I am experimenting this or that idea, that is why this week I am a bit on the weird looking side.".

Basically, the important thing is... you are not alone. You also are most likely not the only people on the planet having this. Poke around a bit more. Sharing the story was a great first step. Try witches and other such areas. Those who knows... will know. Those who don't will get a kick out of your story. You are not in a hurry at the moment.

Thanks for the ideas! The coporate thing sounds fun, now I have a plan on what to do for a living :) And yeah, maybe movies did fuck up my head and everyone I would be talking to about this would be real nice, but I am not thrilled at the idea of telling authorities because they might put 2 + 2 together and figure out how my Mom disappeared, and then I'm screwed. Also, Granny is currently my legal guardian (we are 16) and I do not want her to stab me if she finds out about this. But anyway, I'll look into your ideas, maybe I can find a way around those issues and we can become Black Widow and Jaime Bond.

Army has therapists too

Army deals with more PTSD and depression than we commoners can imagine

And yet, they find a way

Also, science is king, like it or not, even the devil has to follow science

They will figure it out

And wdym "let herself be used as a weapon" ??

You think undercover agents are weapons and not people??

What kinda thinking is that??

True that, and my Dad's personality didn't help ONE BIT with my emotional problems, I doubt that more military dudes would make me more chill. Also, I am like on the verge of getting kicked out of school because of my authority problem, so how long do you think I would stay in the fucking army?

You mean for her to admit who she is and let herself be used as a weapon? That sounds like a bad idea, especially when she said that it's getting harder to control herself the more she shifts. It feels like she needs to figure out the mystical aspect of it. And I don't see how the army would be that.

Killing my drug dealer would make it kind of difficult to buy weed

Yeah we thought about joining the military very, very briefly, but fortunately, we are not American, and I'm honestly not sure whether or not my country has an organization similar to the secret-service, we barely send working tanks to Ukraine lol. But even if I were American, I wouldn't trust those dudes, I heard that they lock people like me up in Area 51. :(

So what, imagine the possibilities

Eat a drug kingpin's right hand man and gather dirt on him

Eat a rival nation's politician and gather their secrets

Strict observation is for normal humans, they will have to tweak their rules accordingly and make changes

The polish once had a bear as a soldier and they even promoted him for exemplary service

Surely they did not make him mop the floor and do pushups??

Here's good boi Private Wojtek if you wanna read about him https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wojtek_(bear)

He used to carry heavy loads, and stuff that mostly needed 4 humans to lift

He is the emblem of the 22nd artillery supply company

If a bear can do all this, imagine what the lady can do

Get something for self defense.and notify the police now!

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Oh, the voodoo thing is a good idea, gotta look into that! We life in a really small town though and cannot have drivers licenses yet, so idk how far we'll get. Maybe I can find someone online.

The "scientific method" is something Jaime wants to try as well (he took AP Biology and has since started to say "from a logical point of view"super-often, which is very annoying). So yeah, he cannot wait to put some needles into me, but I gotta see what he wants to do exactly before I agree to this. Will keep you updated.

Also, many people have suggested therapy, but neither me nor my brother ever went because a) Mom was a therapist, and you see how that turned out and b) I cannot talk about my emotional issues without anyone asking for the so-called "reasons" and I get into ranting-mode fast and I am scared that I will let something slip that gets me tried for murder. Also, laying down on a couch and crying sounds boring.

Dunno girl, Alex told me that drug dealer near your house looks tasty

Alex who?? Alex Mercer is who

Yuna again. I don't believe this shit was my fault (anymore), I mainly refered to this as an addiction because my skin falls of like I'm on fucking meth and I am scared that it will get worse the more often I do it.

Your plan is fun in theory, but seems kind of hard to pull off in practice. Like, where do I get bad people from? And where do I draw the line here? Do I only eat murderers? Bullies? Dudes who are mean to cats? Does that include children who are mean to cats? And if I continue down this road, doesn't doing this make me as bad as the people I kill? I would like to eat Dave, because fuck Dave, and as the next day is approaching, I think I propably will (I'll tell you how it goes). But overall, I do not believe in the death penalty (not American lol) and I cannot just find random monsters on the street.

Lady sounds fragile and actually you spend long, LONG time under really strict observation.

Why bother with therapy when you can join the military with your awesome powers and eat as much as you want??

Pretty sure the secret service will have a ton of uses for a shape shifting monster, they will even manage her schedule and give her plenty of weapons to protect herself from similar monsters