I listened to the audio book on his new one and it was like a 30 minute interview with his mom. It was great

No but it did lead me to being broke.

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I know how hard it is to be hurt but still have to take care of yourself physically and mentally. Its hard, but good job on sticking to your goals!

If you want to DM I’m here for you.

Keep pushing. 💗

And his new one , heard it was even better

Haven’t heard the term “subordinates” in a corporate setting in at least 10 years which tells me a lot about how you view people, but if the people under you are fucking up, then it is YOUR fault because you can’t handle your own responsibilities.

If you crave the normalcy/consistency/passivity and are happy with it then there’s nothing wrong.

Some people are goal driven and they feel fulfilled when they achieve a goal or even some people get the high from the work leading up to the goal. Some people crave and are raised in lifestyles where there’s routine and a constant.

The depression might make you feel dissatisfaction with how things are but only you know what you really want.

Your post gives me the feels that you don’t think your life is good enough. But there are tons of valuable and special things I can see in the post.

You graduated HS (some people don’t) You’ve worked at the same place for 7 years (hello, SO valuable, admirable as some people can’t even keep a job for two years - you’re valuable to your employers and you hold yourself to a “I show up” standard which you’d think is common but it’s not actually, this is a you trait that will follow in anything you do) You have a hobby (okay dormant) but one no one forced you to do or pressured you into! You have love in your life! Some special person who you love to feel in your arms and who loves you back!!

If you feel guilt though. It’s okay to let the guilt drive you if you can channel it into doing something at that very moment. If you let the guilt linger and spread over every moment of your life, that’s unproductive. I also find it I make very vague lists when I feel guilt like “working out every Thursday” rather than “working out right now, or at 6pm bc right now I have something going on” I usually feel more guilt at not following through

Or maybe you don't understand the work as well as you think you do and its potential variables and opportunities for problems to arise? Just a thought. I often see a disconnect between management and worker that is exactly this. It's easier to write it off as stupidity than to learn the ins and outs of the work itself and try to understand.

Love this!! So true! Hard to remember…

Soo sick!

It could leave me destitute though.

Sounds like you’re in survival mode and trying to figure things out “on your own” for the most part. Reaching out here is a good start towards asking for and receiving more help. I always recommend seeing a professional therapist, but the important thing is to at least talk with someone outside of your immediate circle. Even if it’s a shitty life coach or just someone you know and respect, keep asking for help.

Mostly, though, I came here to suggest that you ask better questions. You can’t get good answers with poorly thought out questions. When I read your question asking if you’re living life “wrong”, it seems like you’re judging yourself from some version of what “success” looks like that has been defined . Not only does that not serve you in making decisions or measuring progress, but it also creates an abstract and unobtainable goal that you can never achieve and causes underlying anxiety.

Coleman Barks does some fantastic readings of Rumi. Youtube had a bunch. I think I still have a copy of Unseen Rain around here somewhere...

i was afraid you would say that. i know it’s the right thing to do. i know that i need to just ~do~ the thing and all the things. it’s just not always that easy. but i will take this to heart and muster up whatever it takes to get shit done. thank you. thank you so much. 💛💛

thank you so much, new internet friend 😭. i like that, too. i will try to push, push, push. (meds aren’t currently an option for me.)

Huge truth here. I have a paid off car, phone, no credit debt. I could have a new car, phone, and still be making it. BUT, I'd be on a razor thin margin. The buffer is so helpful towards my baseline happiness.

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It's either heaven or hell, make your choice

fact!

I think this is a lot closer to what karma means than the "what goes around comes around" way most people tend to think about it.

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Judging from the kind of quality I see from subordinates, it seems that “doing simple things consistently” is, in fact, “extraordinarily difficult.”

Aw shucks ❤️