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armageddon_20xx t1_jegmxgr wrote

Reply to [TT] Theme Thursday - Mania by AliciaWrites

The Expectation Complex

I'm better than them. They are weighted by their doubts, like anchors to the bottom of the sea. I have no doubts, for I've seen the surface of the Universe and understand the purest meaning of life. It speaks to me in ways they couldn't possibly conceive, in a language foreign to their virgin ears.

I expect to be the best at whatever I do. If I'm not the best, then I suspect that with practice I will be. I'm extraordinary, not ordinary. To be not best is to conclude that I'm not free, that I need them. I cannot need them, for that would imply that they need me. This is the definition of whole-life-imprisonment.

I should be free.

How should I expect to know the right way to live if I cannot act on my own impulses? I did not choose them, they chose me. It is easy to conclude that I should act upon them, otherwise, why do they exist? Freedom is existence, and I exist, so should be free. Therefore, I should be the best.

If I am insufficient, clearly not the best, then I must practice with rigor until I am. To do otherwise is to choose imprisonment. And if in such practice, I find other expectations that must be met, then I must meet those as well. So forth all the way down to the smallest expectation which I can definitely meet, moving up to the harder ones.

This is why I write 20,000 words every day. I'm not the best writer, and until I am I cannot be free. So I spend every moment from when I awake until when I sleep writing.

In the name of freedom.

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clothing_throwaway OP t1_jegmx6f wrote

Reply to comment by MKdotcom in 9009 and Grey by clothing_throwaway

Iso top mount. I got the silicone base in case I ever wanted to try out stack mount, but I think it'd be too muted for my tastes. This thing's pretty easy to configure, though, so it could be worth a shot!

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Critical-Attention51 t1_jegmwe1 wrote

Reply to comment by normalboyz1 in Me 24F and Boyfriend 23M , 3 year relationship while living together nearly the entire time.. I’ve made an interesting discovery by [deleted]

I think using this to enhance our sex life is a great option, because I feel trying to bury the feeling would only create an issue down the road.. but he is persistent on the fact that it’s not something he wants to continue doing at any point in his life, and that this personality he takes on while having these conversations with other women is so detached from himself.

I even joked that the reason he possibly doesn’t speak to me the way he speaks to these other women is because he actually views me as a human being, which he chuckled and agreed to. It’s a very peculiar situation for sure.

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